Monday, August 02, 2010

Another Wave

Remember the movie Sex, Lies and Videotape? Sometimes I feel like Andy MacDowell's character in that, in the way that she obsessed about all the things going wrong in the world. Things she couldn't change. To a point it is almost crippling.

I look around today and I remind myself, if we all did what we could from our homebases, we'd make a huge difference. While I can't make my neighbor go green or eat locally, I can do those things. But sometimes it just doesn't feel like enough. I mean, I wish I could actually fix something. I wish I could stop feeling outraged about things. Oil spills, governments, big corporation fraud, garbage, pollution, agribusiness' monoculture, bees dying, polar ice caps melting, global warming, species extinction, famous child molestors, need I go on? But it all seems so futile. Even when I thought I finally made a difference with my vote, now I'm not so sure. My husband likes to point out that the Obama administration has re-elevated science and brought it back into public view. That alone is a great accomplishment. But I want more.

Who am I but a voice carried on the wind to nowhere? A tiny speck of sand on the beach huddled into the landscape with all the other specks. There is an ocean of trouble out there and all I seem to be able to do is watch it happen, watch it coming at us.

5 comments:

Clowncar said...

All you can control is the small world you interact with daily.

Easier said than done - I walked around in a state of constant agitation during the Bush years. And Katrina made me physically ill.

Still.

de said...

splutter.

What can I say after being dashed with a bucket of cold water. It's true, what you say.

Lately I've been captivated by the idea of making my own t-shirts, declaring my issues. So, there's my great idea of the day.

jaded said...

Unfortunately the changes we have the most control over as individuals are the small ones. I know that isn't the most reassuring thought, but small changes do matter and sometimes good can become contagious.

Andrea Frazer - Pass the Zoloft said...

I think you can make more changes than you realize just by your actions. Plus, in writing, people can see it, and bring that into their lives. Yes, it's discouraging, but you're doing more than most.

Maggie said...

Clowncar, me too about the Bush years. But what agitates me now is the utter lack of compassion for individuals suffering from the economic downfall, in spite of the frenzy to bail out large blocks of people holding giant sums of money. Grrr. And other things. yeah, I really need to focus on the little controllable things.

De, not a bad idea. I'm betting a lot of others will share your issues and buy some of your t-shirts.

Jaded, contagious good is a nice thought. Like the ripples on a lake.

Andrea, thank you. I try and try and still feel like the upstream battle is too much sometimes. Like actions are just getting lost in the eddy. But, can't stop trying.